I am not special, I am unique

Yesterday I found out something...I was standing right next to you but it felt so different.
What we talk about in texts and Facebook, we never actually Talk about them in School ..We never...talked...
I'm actually quite envious about Jie Sheng. When I talk to girls...I...just don't know what to say...
The point is...Everything is back to square one for me...I am back to questioning myself....


Even if she didn't choose Jiesheng and chose me instead, Would I still be like what I am now?
Everything I say in facebook, I never say it out to you in real life....I can type Thousand times of Iloveyous but would I say it to her when she is mine? can I even make her laugh like yankang can?
Can I say sweet things to her like sanjay could?