I am not special, I am unique

What do you want from me? I'm trying to study hard, I'm trying to get her back to be my girl, I'm trying to not get too stress. I'm trying to get a job, I'm trying to face my father...each day.. I just get so much time to be alone. My father currently have anger management problems. He changes his mood so sharply that I cannot communicate with him.. I'm sorry... I tried not to cry, like a man should.. But I'm just too weak you see.....all I wanted is someone who can be by my side when I'm down...