I am not special, I am unique

Dear blog,
Ada and I are most probably going to different schools. Well I was kinda preparing for it way for quite some time.. I am gonna miss her bloody 24/7 "I hate this world" face.. hmm alittle harsh on words :P
She is special, she was the reason I went to school instead of dropping them with excuses. She was the reason why I didn't give up on most of my decision. She was there to make me happy, OCCASIONALLY pissing me off too. I regret not stepping forward to talk to her multiple times. Like during prom, like when she gotten her results. But what I regretted the most in my past 2-3 years was when I saw her cry and didn't do anything. I wanted to go and give her hug, but I foresee myself being rejected or scare her away. But I could have just talked to her or just give her some tissue.. but I didn't..  I just watched... And didn't know what to do. This thing had been bugging me for a long time. So I just wanna throw it out. She acts tough but she doesn't see herself that way. She doesn't like to be in the spotlight but she wants to be someone people appreciates and someone she can be proud to be. She can be outspoken at times but most of the time, she keeps it to herself ( unless you step on her blue coloured bow tied tail ). She used to scare me away with her mood swings, now I think I scare her off with my anxiety disorder. I was so happy to be with you in home econs... In sec 2 Home econs, I even made a heart shaped cookie for her, but Jackie ate it :( I used to tease her about anything I can find...because I find that that was the only way I gotten her attention... I know right?! What a attention whore! But that was just a small page of what ada and I shared together.. I love you dear.. but I don't know how I can show it to you. Haha I think the full of emotion side of me taken over just now.. that's that blog. I will see you soon... Off to work my life away without ... :)