Each day, whenever I want to text you, I am struck with fear and guilt. The fear of you being angry and don't want me to ever talk to you again, and the guilt of not talking to you...even after all the promises.. There were times when you even tried to cheer me up.. even though you didn't know what was happening on my end.. I was really happy.. The Melvin today feels like he is no longer free and happy.. going to work on weekends...come home with a effed up sleep pattern.. come to school and is greeted with stress of the upcoming tests and examination... have to prepare for peer tutoring, yet the class never appreciates... fought with my best friend... well I'm tired of all of this.. So I am going to break the cycle..
Today, I am not going to care about whoever that are unhappy with me.
Today, I shall start to live on a life that I own.
Today, I shall love her once more, like I wanted to.
Today.. Shall be the end of the cycle..
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