I am not special, I am unique

Dear Blog,
I try my best to be someone people would like more. Not myself. I try to hold my temper and emotions back most of time, but when someone really get on my nerves I really feel
Like destroying them. So what if they have people to back them up? They can scold me and insult me? Fuck off man. I hate when people bully my friends. I will give them what they deserve. I dont what to do sometimes... To say the truth.. I have Body odor .. I spray deodorant .. So you guys won't reject me or push me away because of it. And here people complains about my deodorant being too pungent or smelly or smells like crap.. Do you think I want to?.. I have so many people that pushed me aside because of it ... It hurts each time they say I smell... Even when I don't ... I feel like I do .... There are so many things holding back me from going forward... Blog.. Its nice talking to you .. You won't reject me :') you don't see my flaws like others do...