Trying to keep up this "logs" to keep my mental state in a healthier place. I am currently going through a withdrawal of sorts. Memories of our friendship in conjunction with my adventurous trip down memory lane, as I go through the photos i've got in my phone.
It's funny how most of them doesn't even have you in them, yet the memories of those engagements still lingers around. Creepy how stuff like this works.
It's been just over 4 months since I've made the decision that would leave me in the state that I'm in today. I wonder if I would actually still feel this way if I could've found someone that was able to replace you.
Replace how you love to destroy me in our little disagreements.
Replace how we used to talk about the most random of things.
Replace the fact that you were my best of the best friend that knew me more than my family.
Replace how you probably upset me more often than you would believe.
Replace how I've upsetted you more than I know.
Replace a part of me.
Thank you for staying happy, I might not pursue our friendship anymore but if anything I am sure no one can replace you.
It's like you said, "people never appreciate the things they have, only when people leave and ignore them will they understand and apologise, but they never learn.
You are always like this, and i hate that about you." something along the line..
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