5th Date

I never thought losing someone I love felt like this. I was full of shit, I was so worried I nearly cried when you came back to me. Every word I said to you, while you were slowly regaining your composure after losing conciousness, I meant it. 

I was shaking from the fear of losing you. I felt so much regret in that moment. 

Stuff I wished I could've done for you and said to you, that I didn't because it wasn't at right time. Fuck that, I'm never gonna hold things back, I never want to lose you again.

I love you. Please get better.