I am not special, I am unique

2nd of October 2016
4:55 A,M

Hello blog, long time no see. I got myself into deep shit. I am not talking to any of my friends or family. I can't get over the fact that I am so weak. I gave so much shit when people get themselves stranded in a pool of addiction and I didn't see my joyous activity/ entertainment/ self relief as an addiction. I feel so dirty but I can't get over the urge. I feel so helpless but I can't go around telling people what I feel. They probably don't feel or know how I feel. I hate to part my problems for others to sympathize or make them feel bad for not having any form of help. I am no different from those rubbish people we all hate on the internet.
Confidence: 0
Self-hate: 90
Wish someone can help me: 100